I don't think that is really a problem either,yes outside I am ugly but the girls like to be with me.To hang out with me and go places with me,they like to sit and talk with me,I am a very good listener and you know when you get the girls talking and they feel comfortable and safe they can really get going.I take them out for walks and pick wildflowers for them,just a simple field lilly is as beautifully adorned as a queen.It is different than onstage when I get mobbed but even that is cool because I just take them into that space.Then they are afraid and holding on to me.Security is cool with it and it makes the party.although forget about playing my instrument anymore,it is buried into your cute little ass and most often I am just holding you and sniffing your perfume telling you that I love you,security is not going to toss you off the front the stage,after the song is done you will be guided back out into the audience.Gently.And thank you,you made the show for me and I do love you.She is delivered back to her boyfriend/fiance,And I am just thinking...Goddamn,what a great job I have.Soon it is over and time to get paid and roll out.Life goes from being very intense and loud to total quiet.And that quiet is a peaceful high.Before you come to call me out you had best walk a mile in my shoes,well two steps anyway because a mile would prob do you in.You are NOT equipped to do this.You would be led to believe that it is actuallly real.And you could not handle ten seconds of the other side of it.The rejection plus the depression.How to handle being booked into the wriong room.As well as being blessed as a good singer I am also a good kisser.I did enjoy my trip to this planet.And I got the job done,I so many times consider myself alone without a single friend to count upon.The mass media,the government considered me to be dangerous to be exposed to the masses.They were both jealous of me and resentful also,they would give me everything they have to be me for one night.That is the value of talent.